Sometimes I forget
the BIG picture
~
I forget to think
globally
or
long term
~
about the consequences of my actions
or more accurately
inaction
Sometimes
I get so down in the weeds
and
and
so focused on the details
~
~
you know...the little things
I completely lose perspective that there is a
larger world our there
with real problems that need real solutions
~
a world
that require sacrifice, clear thinking, and a commitment
my shallow desire for
My little world to be
perfect
Because while I complain about not being able to buy
my own house
along the pristine and beautiful California Coast
~
Little Sophie
is waiting for her first house
~
one made of the five hundred and eighty six mud bricks
that her mother is making
to protect the family from the harsh and savage African environment
~
no running water
no heat but for a small fire
no bed but for a mat
no bathroom
~
Sometimes I just want to slap the shit out of
my self absorbed and privileged
EGO
~
Seriously
how does one justify excess, waste, and arrogant privilege?
~
How does one qualify need vs desire?
~
What can you live without?
and
What can you live WITH?
~
Because I am having a hard time living with myself
knowing that
on a global continuum
I am part of the 1% I am bitching about in my country's tax structure
and that just doesn't seem right
~
Because now I have to take responsibility for being part of the problem
how does one justify excess, waste, and arrogant privilege?
~
How does one qualify need vs desire?
~
What can you live without?
and
What can you live WITH?
~
Because I am having a hard time living with myself
knowing that
on a global continuum
I am part of the 1% I am bitching about in my country's tax structure
and that just doesn't seem right
~
Because now I have to take responsibility for being part of the problem
Hmmmm, this one stirred up a whole bunch of thoughts... first, I do agree that often we spend way too much time obsessing over the little meaningless things. Most of the time they don't even mean much in our own lives once we can manage to step away from them. That's where stepping back into the moment always (or most always! ;) clears things up for me, at least for a moment or two. Sometimes a breath is all I need. :) On the other hand I don't think that any one journey is better or worse than another. I think your dreams for a coastal home are valid, as they are part of your very important and unique path. I think you can follow your dreams, make your heart sing and still change the world. :)
ReplyDeleteA very thought provoking post. It made me stop and cringe at all the times, even just today, that I complained about one thing or another. We've got it so good. SO good. And I definitely try not to lose sight of that, even when I am going through the bigger upsets. It's so important to keep in touch with the bigger picture.
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