Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Win a book!

I wish I had some cool picture of some wonderful art I had created. But alas...I need to read the book first(remember that ugly shoe box I tried to collage)? ...so...in the meantime...check out Susan Tuttle has launched...her work is lovely!


Wednesday, October 31, 2012

A ghost, though invisible, still is like a place
your sight can knock on, echoing; but here
within this thick black pelt, your strongest gaze
will be absorbed and utterly disappear:

just as a raving madman, when nothing else
can ease him, charges into his dark night
howling, pounds on the padded wall, and feels
the rage being taken in and pacified.

She seems to hide all looks that have ever fallen
into her, so that, like an audience,
she can look them over, menacing and sullen,
and curl to sleep with them. But all at once

as if awakened, she turns her face to yours;
and with a shock, you see yourself, tiny,
inside the golden amber of her eyeballs
suspended, like a prehistoric fly.

~ Rainer Maria Rilke

What haunts you?

Monday, August 20, 2012

Birthday # 56

Every year I share my birthday celebration with 
my grandson Kieran.

It is usually a fun filled weekend at the cabin in Truckee
and at least one day at the beach
at Donner Lake.

This year my heart has been broken in a million little pieces
and it has been hard to find joy
when my chest is clogged with sadness and pain.
It makes it hard to breath and swallow.

So it is the little things I am clinging to.
It is in these faces that I find hope.
It is opening up the possibility that
my grandchildren
will have a life
not necessarily free of challenges
a life built upon the critical skills to navigate choices
with clarity and the long term consequences of their actions.

But for now
summers are snow cones and Skittles
and summer days
filled with family and friends
and the biggest decisions are
PB & J or just J

And even though I didn't have the photo card in my camera
while I took careful and plentiful pictures of Kienan's birthday celebration
I did at least figure it out in time to capture some of the lake fun. 
And to remember that for some children
life is a joyful celebration.

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Best Friends

You know how there is this debate
about the difference in personalities
between cat and dog owners
dog owners prize devotion
cat owners prize independence
Isn't this also the debate
in relationships as well
Does independence and devotion
have to be mutually exclusive
Because if it does
I'll choose


Thursday, July 12, 2012

A Mess...

I've been a mess lately
not a cute mess either
not the kind of mess created by 
loving something so much I just can't get enough of it
Its been said 
we create our own reality
and from my point of view
there is good and bad in that possibility
on the one hand
it speaks of endless possibilities and opportunities
it speaks of personal power 
and the impact of our choices
on the other hand
it speaks of frustration and confusion
with best intent and hard work
hopes and dreams 
crumble before our eyes
It is then
that I must remember the BIGGER picture
the one that is focused on growing the soul not comforting the ego
so  I shake my head and dust myself off 
and with confident uncertainty
take another step into the unavoidable adventure
to discover who I really am.

Thursday, June 28, 2012

Time Flies

Times flies…
On wings and breath and wind
            It lifts and for a time we soar

Time flies…
as we stand mute
hoping it will linger
on exquisite moments of intimacy
as we sniff a baby’s head
embrace a friend
a poem, a picture, a sensuous dish.

Time flies…
 Like a humming bird,
a bee
collecting experiences like sweet nectar
only to stall and dive
piercing the depths of our liquid emotions
searching for absolution from
pain, frustration, disappointment, sorrow.

Time flies…
Clipping the very wings with which we soared.
Future, past
Past, future
a beating pulse
 a metronome of
wings to keep us aloft
The present being only the half beat in between.

Time flies...
 in one direction
we cannot
stop it, slow it
or turn it back.
We can only ride its currents.

Thursday, June 21, 2012

Summer Solstice

Today is as good as any
to begin again
I've been away from blog land
for a couple of months
The list of 'whys' are long
and personal
But I discovered how much
this photo blog has fed my soul
So I am back
and ready to begin again
it just might not be as often
I don't know about you
I prefer celebrating the pagan holidays 
rather than 
all those Hallmark moments
The spring and fall equinox being
my favorite
Today's is summer solstice and 
I'm kinda sad
it just seems like spring arrived 
and it is already gone.
It seems like so much has happened
since I last posted.
It seems more like a lifetime 
rather than just a season.
It reminds me just how quickly things can
slip away before we notice.
to start again
seems almost overwhelming.
I will take it slowly
and put my toes back into the water
of blogging again.
I feels good to 
be committed again to 
some photos and words and to
look a little more deeply into my days.
To tell you the truth
I have missed the connection.